Monday, November 24, 2008

I wanted to start a separate blog for the thoughts that are racing through my brain all the time nowadays. I felt it would help me if I were to let some of them out of my head. This blog will be a work in progress and never predictable.
I did not want to take away from the happy blog, because that blog is full of smiles and laughter and this one may be a little different.

I have been here before, twice!!! I thought I was done, funny how you think that you are so in control. I can control many things, but not this. I assumed because I had an amazing family that everything would be perfect. HA HA Leigh not so much.
My story really started when I was 18 diagnosed with Hodgkin's Disease, then at 29 I was told I had a radiation induced angiosarcoma in my breast. That diagnosis led to a mastectomy and 4 months of chemo. Now here I am, 33 and facing the angiosarcoma again, and this time we think it has made a sweet home in my bones. Just what I wanted to hear.

It seems odd to me that I always seem to be told these things around the holidays.

I do realize that life has a funny mind of its own. When you think you have it all figured out, bam take that!! My heart hurts so much, but I have no choice in this matter and I have to fight!!! My determination comes from my kids, they light up my life and keep me sane.
When I feel down I just look at those sweet innocent faces and realize that they need their momma to be strong.